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respoftwI watched Dumplin’ on Netflix tonight and I think I pretty much cried my way through most of it.
This film has so much heart, it has so much love and positivity and is just everything that 15 year old me wanted to see represented on film. To see fat characters - three of them in one movie - each of them different, each of them strong, brave and loving and being loved in return......15 year old me needed that. Hell, 35 year old me needed that.
The part of it that really got to me, like really choked me up, was the relationship between Willowdean and her Mum. Ive felt like a disappointment to my own Mum for so long for the way I look, never mind that I did well in school, found someone who made me happy, got a good job. Those are all things that mothers are supposed to want for their kids but all I’ve ever felt like is a disappointment because I’m not thin.
Watching Willowdean and her Mum come to an understanding, watching Willowdean realise her Mum loved every inch of her was amazing. I still don’t feel like I have that with my Mum, I might never get there, but damn it was good to live vicariously through them.
Excuse me while I go and cry some more ugly tears about how damn wonderful this film was.
This film has so much heart, it has so much love and positivity and is just everything that 15 year old me wanted to see represented on film. To see fat characters - three of them in one movie - each of them different, each of them strong, brave and loving and being loved in return......15 year old me needed that. Hell, 35 year old me needed that.
The part of it that really got to me, like really choked me up, was the relationship between Willowdean and her Mum. Ive felt like a disappointment to my own Mum for so long for the way I look, never mind that I did well in school, found someone who made me happy, got a good job. Those are all things that mothers are supposed to want for their kids but all I’ve ever felt like is a disappointment because I’m not thin.
Watching Willowdean and her Mum come to an understanding, watching Willowdean realise her Mum loved every inch of her was amazing. I still don’t feel like I have that with my Mum, I might never get there, but damn it was good to live vicariously through them.
Excuse me while I go and cry some more ugly tears about how damn wonderful this film was.
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Date: 2018-12-12 09:48 pm (UTC)A good cathartic cry and a good cathartic movie is a blessing. I have not seen “Dumpling” yet, but your words resonated with me. I am still a disappointment to my mother. I’ve known it all my life. My earliest memories are of guilt. I don’t know what a 3 year old has to feel guilty about and the longer I live on this planet, the more I am baffled by her.
I hope you can continue to gain strength and be able to separate your sense of self from her expectations. It’s very hard to do, but having people to appreciate and support you are the ones who really matter.
It may sound silly, but fandom has given me a better sense of self a fun community of “oddballs” where I am accepted as I am.
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Date: 2018-12-13 06:32 am (UTC)I’ve always been jealous of people who have a close relationship with their Mum (like my sister has) but c’est la vie. Found family is just as important in my book xx
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Date: 2018-12-13 12:10 am (UTC)Re: I can't agree hard enough
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Date: 2018-12-13 06:40 am (UTC)I'll search for it :D
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Date: 2018-12-13 07:38 am (UTC)(Also you are awesome and wonderful just as you are!)
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