2018: 32-20

[respoftw]

It’s been a tough week. I’ve been incredibly self critical and it’s a hard spiral to get out of. Work was frustrating which didn’t help because it’s the one area of my life that I usually have any self confidence in but lack of being kept in the loop by people has meant that I’ve given some inaccurate information to an external funder which wouldn’t be a big deal any other week (we have a good enough working relationship that I could explain and pass the right info on) but this just wasn’t the week for it and it added to my spiralling thoughts.

Plus I did something to my back yesterday while we were Pokemoning and it’s been hurting ever since. So much so that I missed the second Community Day today because I could barely move.

Let’s just write this week off and start anew tomorrow. It’s my last week before I come off for a fortnight. A fortnight which will feature seeing Brian Wilson in concert, tea with my family and a night away in a remote Scottish hideaway for my birthday. Lots of things too look forward to.

Another week, another two hurt/Comfort fills. Both much less depressing than last weeks which is good. I also made some progress on my sgareversebang fic. We’ll just gloss over the incredibly offensive comment that I got on one of my fics that managed to be both homophobic and misogynistic all at once.

Comments

[amycooper]

*hugs*

I'm sorry to hear you've have a bad week. I hope next week is better.

[otherearths_outthere]

I’m so sorry to hear that you are hurting. As someone who used to be pretty athletic and now can throw my back out just getting out of a chair (absolutely actually happened!) or sweeping, I can really sympathize. I hope you’re feeling better soon Sorry to hear that work has you by the knees also. When you feel attacked or upended by The One Thig you have confidence in, that can really upset everything else. {{HUGS}}
Sending you chicken 🐓 soup 🍜, tea 🍵 and sweets 🍭 🍬 🍫

[respoftw]

I just found the notification for this in my junk email! Thank you. My back is still not right but I’m an,e to get around so it’s not all bad.