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So, I turned 34 yesterday and I know that I'm not old, I know that mid 30s is nothing to worry over but goddamnit it was a lot harder than 33.
When I think that my Mum had a 13 year old and a 6 year old at this age or when I look at all my friends who have kids or are married....I dunno. I think the reason that I'm struggling is that I think I should want all that too?
But I don't. I'm happy in my life. I have a wonderful partner who I love completely, a job that both pays well and is enjoyable. Yeah, my house is a little small and cluttered but it's 100% mine, no mortgage, no debt. I may be a little lonely sometimes but that's what fandom is for (at least for me).
I'm getting hung up on what others expect my life to be like (or what seventeen year old me thought thirty-four would look like) and that's not something I should be doing.
Why do birthdays always make me maudlin??
When I think that my Mum had a 13 year old and a 6 year old at this age or when I look at all my friends who have kids or are married....I dunno. I think the reason that I'm struggling is that I think I should want all that too?
But I don't. I'm happy in my life. I have a wonderful partner who I love completely, a job that both pays well and is enjoyable. Yeah, my house is a little small and cluttered but it's 100% mine, no mortgage, no debt. I may be a little lonely sometimes but that's what fandom is for (at least for me).
I'm getting hung up on what others expect my life to be like (or what seventeen year old me thought thirty-four would look like) and that's not something I should be doing.
Why do birthdays always make me maudlin??
